i had to mute my tv when that cunt from the darkness came on. then i turned round to notice half my room was a little cleaner than usual and about 40 coffee cups scattered all over the table means i have to wash them before i suffer from withdrawal when there’s no fresh ones.  ‘it’s not easy being green’, if they mean envious, then kinda is, but if they mean, heavy, environmentalist cunt, then i suppose it is, but only if you’re so up yourself you couldn’t care less about anybody else, which, is fair enough.  i don’t care about the world man, i have a wierd theory, that when i die, theres a high chance i won’t regret not going anywhere outside my room, because i’ll either not exist, or I’ll exist in somewhere much worse or much better, possibly? that’s horrible, not being able to know what happens to you when you die, you just feel like you have to make the most out of everything in case it’s dreadful, like an everlasting burst of that pain you get when you stub your toe, fuck even thinking about that, horrrible.  tv all up in my grill, wanting me to pay attention to it, i wouldn’t give it the time of day if i hadn’t been brought up in front of the thing, i feel like it’s a third parent, one that doesn’t question me, a nice understanding one that fuels me with porn, comedy and a little(emphasis on little)information, reliable, it’s horrible how people make you hate it, but people really want you to hate everything don’t they?  enjoyment is something for yourself and yourself only, yourself and people who want to enjoy at the same time as you and feel miserable at the same time as you, anyone having fun at a time when you’re not is possibly, doing it out of spite, or just a cunt.  all those things that are anything but educational or socially correct are most definitely incorrect, IT’S NOT RIGHT BECAUSE HUMANS SAID IT’S NOT, it’s ultimately wrong, doesn’t matter if it makes you feel spectacular, radiant, complete, happy, happy, happy. thats what confuses me the most. things that makes you feel good are better than things that make you feel bad surely?, we’re not fighting for some cause here man, we’re just alive, it’s maybe not a big deal, stop making it one, i don’t want to ruin my life, but my life is just now, i am living, look at me think, i am thinking, i think, therefore i am, i be, i do, i see, my brain is on, my face is contorting, my fingers are moving, my opinions are fading, my hatred is, perpetually, growing.